it broke again...
even though i opened up my door to you a year ago, i still have a shut window.
crying in heart ache, you ask me to open the shut window for you.
'i wasn't ready, i said.
'dont be haunted by your past, im your present & future.', you said.
with all my might, i opened up the long shut window.
pouring every bit of me onto you.
the long lost, & REAL me, is back.
'you're too much, i need freedom.'
the same words which made me shut my windows tight forever.
the same heart breaking words.
the effort of sealing my true self to prevent the fragile heart from getting shattered by the one that i've let in.
again & again.
it sucked all my life force to get the lil' shattered pieces back together.
i dont know if i still have enough left for the next hit.
......
i am a waste of time.
why am i here?
i dont know..